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Jay Kay

Member Since 16 Aug 2016
Offline Last Active Oct 02 2017 08:51 AM

#3515983 Woogierama

Posted by Jay Kay on 02 October 2017 - 07:26 AM

Hope you all are well. Been very busy for myself. My little sister was diagnosed with cancer ,so I unplugged for a bit. It's all fine and very treatable. Glad to see the boards don't have spam cancer today. 

#3510193 What are you reading?

Posted by Jay Kay on 27 June 2017 - 04:55 PM

I'm reading IT again and 33 questions you're not supposed to ask about US History

#3510058 Hey guys ...

Posted by Jay Kay on 20 June 2017 - 05:48 AM

Lock this bitch up

#3509536 Hey guys ...

Posted by Jay Kay on 14 May 2017 - 01:00 PM

I've been pretty reluctant to post here regarding what I'm about to talk about at risk of being misinterpreted as exploiting a personal tragedy for attention or whatever.. but you guys are my digital friends and I don't have a whole lot of people that I feel connected to that I feel comfortable being vulnerable with.

Maybe it's assbackwards, or just a really unfortunate flaw of mine, but I'm more comfortable talking in this forum then the flesh and blood I'm around. Maybe it's because a persona isn't really necessary here, and I can just be myself.

I've always handled loss poorly. On the outside? I project myself as concrete, unaffected, and am usually more concerned with comforting others whom were affected. I don't like showing vulnerability; for some reason my mind has labeled it as weak and taboo. I know it's healthy and normal to allow yourself to cry or grieve around others, but it's like an uncontrollable defense mechanism in me to reject it and swallow it.

My biggest problem when faced with any sudden loss, is I become reclusive and bitey. Loss has many faces; and I have dealt with quite a bit on the past few years. After the failure of my marriage, I lost most of my friends because I withdrew and became very bitter. I get bitey when people ask "are you ok?" Or want to talk about it. It's a really bad flaw. Because of my attitude and my rejection and outright asshole attitude towards my friends who were just trying to be there, most of my friendships were destroyed. Soon after that I spiraled into a brutal addiction that further isolated myself from family. Since I've recovered, I've just occupied myself with business.

My closest remaining friend and business partner committed suicide in April within an hour of hanging up with me on our last phone call. I am having a really hard time.

He sent me a postcard that I received after his death that served as his goodbye, and just today was sent a video by his roommate who was able to break into his Mac to recover his in progress projects that I'm now tasked with finishing. Both of these indicate that it was planned. Our last phone call was great, and I had no indication that he was going to do this. After he hung up with me he changed all of the social profiles to black pictures and ended his life, discovered shortly after our call.

Had anyone dealt with this? Can I have some advice on how to not drown in misery?

#3508795 Woogierama

Posted by Jay Kay on 26 April 2017 - 09:20 AM

It's not just news if it's CNN it's BREAKING NEWS

#3508268 What ye NOT be listening to?

Posted by Jay Kay on 06 April 2017 - 04:08 PM

Cross crossss

#3508165 Woogierama

Posted by Jay Kay on 02 April 2017 - 10:34 AM

Yeah check it out, I was hoping they'd redo it eventually, it looks promising.

As far as ghost in the shell goes, I guess I'm just bored of the accidentally creating the perfect assasin gone rogue concept. It'll probably be one I catch on video later.

#3508159 Woogierama

Posted by Jay Kay on 02 April 2017 - 09:28 AM

The irritating part of the miniseries is the finale where for some reason they just got lazy and made it some alien spider.

In the book, it makes a lot more sense. It is basically the opposite of god in the surrounding macroverse wherein it represents consumption instead of creation, and saturating it's victims in fear is like a tasty seasoning.

At the end it has the form of a crude spider like creature because that's the closest thing that can be perceived by the human mind.

#3508156 Woogierama

Posted by Jay Kay on 02 April 2017 - 06:57 AM

I'm a big Stephen king nerd so I've had a nerd woody since the it trailer dropped

#3508109 I lost my Mojo

Posted by Jay Kay on 31 March 2017 - 08:31 AM

Where words fail, music fills that void for sure.

My best recommendation is to tie that pain to little musical balloons and set them free. Music is an amazing medium for expressing and expelling the things that weigh us down. While you may never fill that void, and I'm so sorry for your loss, you can create a pretty comforting companion in music to lead you in new and exciting adventures in life.

#3507839 What Ye Be Listening To?

Posted by Jay Kay on 13 March 2017 - 08:15 AM

I saw Neil with CSN back in 2006. I hear they're thinking about another tour. I would probably go as I was excited to say I saw their last tour. 

Never seen em' live, but would definitely go should they announce a new tour

#3507814 I imagine you're all sick of "hey, how've you been?" posts, but

Posted by Jay Kay on 12 March 2017 - 01:15 PM

Was around since the guitartabs.cc days under a plethora of names and aliases. Always came back for a peek and voyuerism, but came back in the last year or so for a more regular stay.

So cool growing up with all you folks and learning all of your stories and coming back years later to see so many of you found your place in life.

I used to chat with Woogie often on messenger and was really sad to learn of his passing, and I always had mad respect for dadfad and frankyz.

nowadays I enjoy arguing politics and social justice with sixy, trading jams with the herr (we'll be meeting up for some studio jams soon), and just shootin the shit with all the other regulars that have either found their way back or kept the boards warm.

Since my joining; I've gotten married and divorced, finally left finance and started my own business, and generally have survived fantastic ups and vicious downs.

I also have a desperate wish to revive the GTU mixtape at least one more time.

Glad to see you're alive and well and welcome back!

#3507487 Because I Honestly Value Each and Everyone of Your Opinions

Posted by Jay Kay on 24 February 2017 - 09:13 AM

Now you make be thinking "John, this is shameless and self serving, you're just doing what all of us have done at one point and trying to get views on your mediocre music". Honestly, I think we all know that you guys don't represent or resemble a share of any market I would target. I just honestly enjoy hearing your critiques. 

I'm sharing all of the demos that I used to do my record properly my first entirely solo album. Your opinions are and have always been value. Happy listening (if you so choose so)!








#3507328 Losing a pet

Posted by Jay Kay on 16 February 2017 - 04:41 PM

That's really sad :/ sorry to hear that. Best to make her as comfortable as possible and spoil the hell out of her. 16 is a long happy life and you should feel great that you were able to provide that for her.

#3507306 Some cool photos

Posted by Jay Kay on 15 February 2017 - 12:05 PM

That's some awesome art on that building

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